The end of last year was somewhat tough for me as I went through a humbling experience. Looking back I count a thousand and one ways in which I was wrong. I saw all the warning signs but ignored them all. I was "faithing" it. As I lay on my bed staring disappointment in the face all my inner police could do was blame me. Guilt sought to punish me for all my mistakes; every careless word, every act of impatience, every prayerlessness, everything true and untrue, so to God I could no longer go.
With so much reluctance that morning, I picked up my 'Open Heavens' for the message of the day. I can't remember the memory verse now, but I would forever remember the words written a few verses ahead. He said, 'For if your heart condemns you, I am greater than the heart and know all things.'
It meant to me not to feel guilty. God sure knows why he allowed the situation, why he allowed me to go through the pain and how he doesn't hold it against me.
This was a great relief to my spirit and with the power of this truth, every feeling of guilt, pain and its cohorts ebbed away. I became free again, and for the first time in a long while, had a clear vision of what the future holds for me in God's will.
Many times our mistakes seek to prevent us from the grace that abounds for us, therefore:
'If your heart condemns you, God is greater than your heart and knows all things"
5 years ago